I have 2 other developers working with me on a critical project, plus my mental + physical health is not so good.
I really want to move to a more relaxed workplace, but I feel deadlocked. I'm unable to carve out time from my job.
I have recently not been performing as well as I did last year/early this year due to my mental health and some changes in my personal life, and my manager noticed that too. I got promoted this year only, and if my performance drops, I get compared to my performance last year which led to my promotion. So if I try to avoid work, I'll be noticed further.
If maintaining your work is important, then I would say focus on your work, wrap that up, to meet any impeding deadlines.
Take a few days off (2 days, that way you get 4 days padding on a weekend) after you have met your deadline, and jump start your interview prep. The initial days of interview prep are the hardest because you are training your brain to focus, solve things outside of your regular job.
Multi-tasking in my opinion is the way that one does multiple things poorly. Love the book, the ONE thing.
Another thing to note, what jobs can you outsource? Food delivery? Office tasks? Instacart? This can free you up from some mental load.
I'm sorry you are going through a rough phase, do something that brings you joy for 30 mins -> non- negotiable!
Are you able to talk it out with someone? Meet people you are comfortable sharing?
I hope you feel better and your circumstances improve.
Sorry to hear about your mental + physical health not being well :(
In my opinion, those should be prioritized and somewhat non-negotiable. For me I work out at least 3x a week and usually right after my workday ends at 5. It helps in 2 ways:
Here are 2 good questions that address much of what you're talking about (one of which I asked):